Light comes and goes; darkness remains. Light always have some source, darkness is without source. That which has some source cannot be infinite; Only that which is sourceless can be infinite and eternal. Darkness is relaxation and total relaxation.
Everybody is afraid of darkness. And just to avoid it we have conceived god as light. But darkness remains settled in the depth of our unconscious as a great fear. Humans are afraid of darkness because of their primitive days when there was no light on earth, and they were surrounded by wild animals.
However, darkness is eternal. This is not the negative darkness which is absence of light but a positive darkness which is the source of all forms.
Tantra describes this beautifully,
In rain during a black night, enter that blackness as the form of forms.
Time: 60 minutes
For the meditation to work, first you will have to remember that there should be no fear in your mind about darkness, about blackness, otherwise how can you do this experiment? First the fear must be dropped. So do one thing as a preliminary step: sit in darkness, put off the lights, feel darkness. Have a loving attitude towards it; allow the darkness to touch you. Look at it. Open your eyes in a dark room or in a dark night; have a communion, be together, imbibe a relationship. You will become afraid — then these techniques cannot be of any help, you cannot do them.
This darkness meditation technique is wonderful. You will enter such a deep relaxation that you have never known. But first uncover your unconscious fears and try to live and love darkness. It is very blissful. Once you know, and once you are in contact with it, you are in contact with a very deep cosmic phenomenon.
It is difficult to find real darkness in cities now; difficult in our houses to find real darkness. With the unreal light we have made everything unreal. Even our darkness is polluted, it is not pure. So it is good to move to some remote place only to feel darkness. Just go to a very remote village where there is no electricity, or move to a mountain peak. Just be there for one week to experience pure darkness.
You will come back a different man, because in those seven days of absolute darkness, all the fears, all the primitive fears, will come up. You will have to face monsters, you will have to face your own unconscious. The whole humanity will be as if you are passing through the whole passage that has passed, and deep from your unconscious many things will arise. They will look real. You may get afraid, scared, because they will be so real — and they are just your mental creations.
You have to come to terms with your unconscious. And this meditation on darkness will absorb all your madness completely. Even in your home you can try it. Every night, for one hour remain with darkness. Don’t do anything, just stare into darkness. You will have a melting feeling, and you will feel that something is entering you and you are entering into something.
Staying, living with darkness for three months, for one hour a day, you will lose all feeling of individuality, of separation. Then you will not be an island; you will become the ocean. You will be one with darkness. And darkness is so oceanic: nothing is so vast, nothing is so eternal. And nothing is so near you, and of nothing are you so scared and afraid. It is just by the corner, always waiting.
Sit in a dark place with open eyes and stare into the blackness. The real blackness is possible in a rainy night because the sky is covered with clouds and there is no star to disturb the blackness.
Don’t close your eyes, because with closed eyes you have a different darkness. That is your own, mental. It is a negative part; it is not positive darkness. With open eyes you will have a positive darkness that is always there. Stare into it.
Go on staring into darkness. Your tears will start, your eyes will get sore, they will hurt. Don’t get worried, just go on. And the moment the darkness, the real darkness which is there, enters in your eyes, it will give you a very deep soothing feeling. When real darkness enters in you, you will be filled by it. You will be utterly relaxed. You may feel that the waves of darkness are entering you from all sides. Accept them without fear.
Many fears will come up. Feel them. Be aware of them. Bring them to your conscious. They will come by themselves, and they will disappear by themselves.
Lie down and feel as if you are near your mother. The darkness is the mother, the mother of all. Think: when there was nothing, what was there? You cannot think of anything else than darkness. If everything disappears, what will be there still? Darkness will be there.
Darkness is the mother, the womb, so lie down and feel that you are lying in the womb of your mother. And it will become real, it will become warm, and sooner or later you will start feeling that the darkness, the womb, is enveloping you from everywhere. You are in it.
And thirdly: moving, going to work, talking, eating, doing whatsoever, carry a patch of darkness within you. The darkness that has entered in you, just carry it.
If you carry darkness within you, your whole body will become so relaxed and calm, so cool, that it will be felt. And as when you carry light within you some people will become attracted to you, when you carry darkness within you some people will simply escape from you. They will become afraid and scared. They will not be able to bear so silent a being; it will become unbearable to them.